I am not a very vocal person. As far as I have known myself, it's hard for me to speak up my thoughts and feelings easily. Even with my husband, when we fall into some argument, I take more courage to speak up and tell him what I need to tell him.
But make me write, and I'll tell you my soul.
Like one time, we had a terrible unsettled argument. When I faced him, I just couldn't bring a word out my mouth. So I wrote it out, and it was a very long letter. And he replied with writing as well. LOL. We were writing and exchanging letters even he's just in another room of the house. But it helped us through that tough time. Because of that, he knew what I really felt and thought.
So this must be the reason why I love journaling in the first place. Back in college, I wrote every day. And now, when I read what I wrote, I can just laugh about my experience.
Everything was all about a teen's struggles transitioning from the laid-back rural life to the crowded and busy city life. From the life of comfort and lax to the life of a college student who needs to budget her weekly allowance, cook for herself, do her own laundry and deal with a new culture.
Journaling was a way of coping to my stress before. I wrote in between chores, oh I wrote every time as if to keep my sanity!
The first journal notebook I had was a Jollibee planner given by my older sister. Then the next one was a cute notebook I got from a craft store, where I chronicled my life after college and the time I met Mark. But the second one was less detailed and inconsistent. I just wrote when I felt like it, and most times, it served not as a journal but as a planner.
Then came my interest in writing a journal online with LiveJournal, which did not go consistently as well. Then I discovered Blogger, and it's free and it made me happy. I was driven by my desire to write away my thoughts and to chronicle my new life as a mother living in the rural.
So there goes the birth of the then-titled The Rural Mom's Journal.
|Grabbed from Fancy Girl Design Studio|
So my life has been a journey with writing and journaling and blogging.
Now. After giving it a thought (at the back of my mind for some time), and perhaps, what I am actually doing these past few months, is that I am going to separate writing my journal and blogging.
I believe writing a journal is healthy for our mental well-being, and yes, there are really some things that we just can't let out to the whole world but needed to be vented out somehow. I also would want to take the path of intentional living and I think practicing the art of journal writing is one way to achieve that.
And about my blogging career (haha!). If my life would be lived more intentionally, then I could publish more posts that can help others. So blogging here would be less than a journal of a mom in the rural. But about something more than that.
Along the way, I will know and you will know. After all it's a journey, and let's take it one day at a time.